pursuit
You will seek me & find me when you search for me with all your heart.
You will seek me & you will find me because you seek me with your whole heart.
If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
Jeremiah 29:13
My life is beginning to change as I read scripture for what it is - promises from the Lord Himself - as opposed to reading these words as simply words on a page.
I tend to put all of this pressure on myself that I am not doing things the correct way - I am not living correctly, I’m not seeking the Lord correctly, etc. This is because He isn’t acting in my time frame and in the ways I would hope He would - so I doubt.
However, I take rest in the fact that if the Lord is truly the desire of my heart - to know and love Him more and walk closely through my life with Him and I desire to be in tune with his will and his spirit - then I will find Him. Not the Him I try to warp into my genie-God so He can do things for me when and where I need Him to, not the God who is angry or upset with me over my mistakes like I let myself believe He is, and not a God who does small things and loves us quietly and behind the scenes.
Seek and you will find a God who moves mountains for you, God who loudly and passionately adores and cherishes you, God who loves you enough to intricately craft every detail of your life in the way that is best for you, God who came down to Earth to die for you just for a 50/50 chance that you will choose to love Him and spend your time with Him, God that speaks to you in ways He know you’ll hear Him and listen, God who sits with you when your heart hurts and whose heart hurts with you, God who wants nothing more than for you to accept and walk freely in His forgiveness, and God who is desperate to walk in intimate relationship with you daily who wants you to urgently tell others about this kind of love.
This is the God that is awaiting you, ever so patiently and lovingly, as you seek Him and pray to Him and look to Him and desire to know Him more. It’s not this empty promise, or a promise that you’ll get a little bit of God but not as much as the next person. It’s a promise that if you seek Him, you will find Him because He is already pursuing you.
